One of the things I’ve noticed over the years as I get older is that I am becoming more emotional….and I don’t understand. I was once known for being the coolest Dude in town. An image I relished, as you can imagine. But these days I just don’t get it. Where did all these tears come from ? It’s not so much family and friends that get the waterworks going it’s emotional joy that kicks me off.
An absolute cert to get me choking back the tears is great music and theatre or performance of any kind. What’s the trigger ? I’m sure there’s a psychological reason for this. Once in a while I get out one my Grateful Dead dvd’s, open a bottle of wine, crank up the volume, turn down the lights and twirl the night away.
By the time I’m halfway through the second set I’m weeping like a baby.
Where did this come from? I’m not sad – I’m joyful.
I try to be cool, of course. “There’s something in my eye. Don’t worry, I’ll get it.” Quick – more wine. Sniff.
The last time I choked back the tears in public was during an Alejandro Escovedo concert in Oxford last year.
His “Sister Lost Soul” about the passing of his friends over the years is a banker to move me.
My reaction to books I can control. It’s just me and the pages, and anyway, I don’t tend to read tear jerkers.
But what’s the emotional connection with music, theatre and performance ? Is it the human thing?
Am I just getting soppy?
When did you last choke back a tear because something moved you with it’s beauty?